The Purpose

 My Dearest Angela it’s been a rough couple of weeks with John’s recuperation and some emotional upheavals too.

In the early hours of this morning starting from 4:30 am My thoughts and emotions came in waves ebbing and flowing.

I thought I heard the door bell go at 4:25am I got out of bed to see who my visitor was but nothing 

Then then again at 4:55am the same thing happened 

I came back to bed dozed off again!

At 5:22 I thought I’d heard the door bell once again I checked the door 

Went to check on the freckles the puppy she was just fine!

Then my head started churning up replaying different.scenarios and felt prompted to put my thought down and share them with someone I trust more than anyone in this world.

First I want to say I’ve truly loved you like my own 

You have brought me so much joy 

Calmed 

the storms of life that have ravished on in both of our lives.

Been a constant!

I’ve felt prompted for some time now to get my story out through messages and voice notes 

For you to keep and share at times when you feel it is necessary!

So for the next few days I will send you these notes and clips for you to save. 

Please let me know if you are happy with that

Love as always 

Roz


[8:28 AM, 5/29/2022] Ros Cell: I don’t seem to have much time to myself with John as he has become constantly needy 

I’m less involved with the masons as I’ve become their nemesis 

So I’m now going to start with who I am, my heart felt feelings and my desires for family and my dearest friends my perspectives in life and the lessons I’ve learned 

If I really had time I would be doing this 

So I’m asking you to just keep it safe make a copy for Pharyn and Garreth and let them have it when the time is right 

Time is moving forward and with my Dear Annie passing away I am recognizing how life can change in a blink 

You are the only one that knows me for who I am and my strengths and weaknesses 

Despite that you still love me.

[8:33 AM, 5/29/2022] Ros Cell: I’ve journals and personal items on my computer which I intend putting in my personal will to you and Pharyn 

I’ve will finish my documents this weekend which Glenda will take back to Johannesburg for her daughter Lara 

As she is handling my affairs legally 

I have documented everything and in the next few weeks will send you the voice notes and texts which you can choose to store however you want 

I’m just wanting to make sure a Garreth and Pharyn know what I expect from them 

Also to my grandbabies

[8:35 AM, 5/29/2022] Ros Cell: I’ve been prompted to do this three times during the night so I am going to heed this prompting 

Feel free to push me if I don’t as I believe this is urgent

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